Back at BYUI

I love, love, love my classes. I am so excited that I can be back at BYUI! All my classes seem like they are going to be a lot of fun! Especially Home and Family Management!

I love my roommates too so far! We had fun bonding last night. First we had a mandatory meeting and then we had to meet with the bishop! Afterwards we sang songs together and watched youtube video's.....

.....And when you think life can't get any better you wake up and your roommate is playing feel good music, the sun is coming out, and then you come to class, and many rooms around you are singing hymns or other churchy feel good songs, praying and being taught! I just love BYUI! I love the atmosphere, it is so inviting... Most of the time!

I am so glad I can be apart of this world, and of these experiences! It is the best!

Just Some Thoughts....In My Thinking Spot!

Wow well it has been a while since I've posted, I thought it was about time that I post again. So I am currently back in Rexburg , Idaho. School will be starting back up in week and a half... Yikes! I am so anxious for it to start up again, but so nervous. It's kind of weird to me that each semester is a little nerve racking for me, you'd think I'd get use to new wards and making new friends.

Actually speaking of friends, there is this guy that I so happen to think is super cute And I can't help but want to spend time with him, but for now we are just friends! At first when he told me he wasn't ready to commit and that we should still be friends, it made me so angry with him, but who am I to be angry at someone who is being fully honest with me and wants to still be my friend.
As much as I would like to not have to learn that hard lesson; I am also glad that God loves me so much that he is willing to teach me that lesson! Heavenly Father does love me and I am a daughter of a king! He has to try me so that I may grow and progress to the person that he wants me to become. I must allow my self to love myself and to be happy with life, to allow God to be enough, and then, hopefully someone else can see my beauty and will want to be with me and be happy with me!
I am so thankful that I can be a member of Heavenly Fathers church, and be in a family who loves and supports me and thatI have loving parents who taught me and still do teach me many things! I think sometimes I get in my head that I am done learning and now I have a plan for myself, but there is always room for learning in fact Heavenly Father wants is to keep learning, and he has a plan for us, which doesn't always go in hand with our own plan, but he knows us and knows what will make us happy, and he knows what we can handle, so we would do best to just have faith and hope in him! I have a lot of room for improvement and I need to still learn things, but I know that I can call upon Heavenly Father for help, and on family and friends! We don't have to do all alone, and need to be humble enough to realize that and ask for help!

MOTHERHOOD

I think that I must being prepared to be a mother one day, because I have been glimpses of what a mothers Joy/heartache, mostly joy though. I would use the word Joy in that bringing a child into the world is a work and a wonder. It is a miracle, and a joy. I would say hard ache, maybe  heartache is not the right word to use, but in using I just mean all the things of seeing you kids choice to do wrong, or when they get hurt or sick.

Last night was just another glimpse into being a mother. I have been staying with Kylie my sister and her family for a week and a half now. Well those who know my sister, went in today to the hospital to have her fourth child and first boy. So I am here to help watch the girls for a few days while Kylie remains in the hospital. Last night Jacilynn throw up all over the floor. Anyone who is anyone does not want to clean up puke or smell it. Well for me my stomach gets weak, and I automatically think I am sick and can't handle it. Well Knowing that Kylie had to get up in a hour and a half to go to hospital, and jacilynn wouldn't go let her know that she'd puked, I got up the courage to clean that puke of the floor and tell her to get in the tub. I am sure I almost died, but I just felt sorry for the girl, that she was sick and didn't feel well, wanting to take away the sickness ( without taking her sickness upon me though, of course) 

I will get the opportunity to help Rileigh get to school and pick her up from the bus stop, help the younger too get food in their bellies and changed for the day. Help them bath if they need it. I  believe that the lord is preparing me with kids, in taking care of them and going through hard things, for one day when I will have my own children.

We are told that being a mother is the best job out there, that it will be the greatest joy in our lives to create and bring life into this world, I believe it!

30 lbs Baby!

So just a quick update, I have made my 30 lbs goal. Yep that't right i have lost 30lbs actually I have lost 32lbs. Yeah Me!

I am so proud of myself for pushing on through, even when there were so many temptations to give into.

I could not have done it without friends and family around me to support me. And my heavenly Father. Thank you for all your support. And again sorry for those who read my blog who are tired of reading about my weight lost. I hope that it isn't annoying and more a motivation for you to go for what you think isn't possible, because it is possible, with friends and family there to help you, and a loving heavenly father that wants so much for you! Have some Faith and shoot for that dream, what ever it may be.

20 lbs Goal!

I DID IT! I DID IT!
I finally made my twenty pound lost goal! I want to keep going but I had to post really quick that I succeeded. I am so happy, I could not have done it with out the Lords help!

Anyways this is short and sweet, but i felt that this victory was needed to be posted I will keep you posted on my next goal when I hit thirty total!

I LOSE BIG

OK the title is a little miss leading. I didn't mean to sound as if I am a big loser, or that I was robbed or something, unless you say losing 10 lbs is being robbed then rob me again!

I have decided that dieting is just not for me. Instead I am going to call it a life change. Every time I decide that I am feeling too unhealthy and overweight I try to diet... I lose some pounds and then go back to what I was doing and eating before. Well not again, this girl is going to make a choice for good, to become healthier and to incorporate exercise into my life. I am tired of feeling sick and bad about myself.

I started about two weeks ago and I have not only, just tried to watch my calorie intake, but I am trying to have portion contol. One plate and it can't be heaping, and not to much of one thing. I can say that I am feeling better about myself and my body is thanking me for this choice to be healthier!

I have also realized that it is a process and to not beat myself up if I choose to have a treat once in a while, or to continue to eat things I love, but instead try to make those choices more healthier. I also figured that reading the scriptures and praying for help, staying close to Heavenly Father is helping me be better on this life change. I want to take care of the body that God gave me. Third I find writing down my progress and keeping track of my calorie intake has helped a lot too. I can always go back and look at what I have accomplished and those feelings I had.

I have a father that I love so very much. He has diabetes, and is heavy. I see how tired he is and I don't want to be tired like that or have to give myself a shot everyday to check my sugars or give myself insulin. I think in a since my dad has soon me what I don't want to happen to me. I love him and I hate seeing him so tired and seeing him not feel so good all the time.

I am calling this a life change because I don't want it to be just a one time for a short period of time I want it to be something I work at doing always.

30 days of being productive!

DAY 1


Today I decide to take a walk to the Public Library to get a book. The book I decided on was an art book. I love Art, I love making things beautiful or seeing other peoples art! I did a few sketches today when I got back from the Library. It was fun to sit down and go at it. It feels good to do things I like and things I feel good about. I am by no means a great artist but I enjoy it and I feel I do fairly well. I think this world would be dull with art, because not only is painting or drawing the only art form, but there are sculpures, and I believe Archeticture is an art form. I think any way of putting together something to create beauty or capture moments is art. If you think of it, our world is so full of art, weither we like it or not, there is much. I learn in my College art class to open up to more art. My teacher says "that we get so use to our "NORM" that we don't or we aren't willing to give other wonderful things a chance. I never thought in my life I would like a Silent film, but found they can be intertaining and that they are just an other art form. It's good to have diversity!