Gratitude

It's turkey month. I thought this post was perfect. I just want to name a few things I'm thankful for.

 I am thankful for my family. I love them all so much and am so thankful to have such wonderful people in my life that love me and support me.

I am thankful for my father in heaven and for his son Jesus Christ who loves me and took upon my sins so that I might find happiness and be able to one day return to my father in heaven

I am thankful for Joseph smith and his faith and persistence  at restoring the gospel to the earth. I am glad I can be apart of the Latter Day Saints church. 

I am thankful for my wonderful boyfriend Mikael Edelmayer, who has made me so happy. I am thankful for his love and for  the  things he puts up with. I am glad for the chance to know him, even through some of the difficulties we have had were hard, I'm thankful for those too.

I am thankful for his wonderful family who've taken me in and loved me. For their kindness and friendship. i am thankful for their welcoming smiles and words. I am thankful for his mom watching out for me and trying to help me find a job.I love you guys.

I am thankful for my friends and for the support and love I have been getting. I can't believe I'm saying this but I am glad that even through the embarrassing crazy times you love me and can laugh at me and with me. I'm glad you love me and feel close enough to laugh at me and with me, and tease me because if you couldn't then I wouldn't be able to laugh off as much as I have. 

I'm thankful for good fun seasons and holidays. Especially Thanksgiving as we gather the gratitude in our hearts and try to be more Christlike around Christmas and thanksgiving time. I am thankful for the opportunity to see the things in our lives that god has done for us and try to change to follow his sons example.  I hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving and remembers to be grateful for all things.

I think Mr. Sandman put me to sleep.. But I'm back and awake

So much has changed since the last time I blogged. Life just seems to get away from us and keep going, and I forget to keep family, friends and other fellow readers posted. In this post it will to catch you all up with my life.

For the past two months I have lived with my cousin Becca Klingler, in my brothers apartment. My brother is getting married in two weeks from today. They decided that getting an apartment two months before they were to be married would actually save them a lot of money in the long run. My brother Cheston asked if I would live in his apartment until his fiancé Christy could move in. Becca and I had so much fun in those two months. We got so close. Laughed a lot, watched movies together, made meals together, and started dating boys together, which brings me to my next thought.

I am currently dating a fellow named Mikael Edelmayer. We dated a little before, but nothing really worked out until now. I think before we both had some growing up to do and some changing. We have been dating for a month, and a week and a half. It has been fun because my cousin and friend started dating another fellow. His name is Mykal Forsgren. Both our guys are really good friends and so we get to do a lot if things together, which has been a blast.

I stopped dieting for a while, but I tried to still eat healthy. I think that exercising and eating even better are in order. Today I ensued my self and I was. 168.0 lbs. this is my lowest weight yet and I told myself I will not gain it back during the holidays.

My whole family is going to try to make it to Rexburg ID for Thanksgiving and also for my Brothers wedding! It's been three months since I've seen my parents and siblings in WA., and it's been even longer since I've seen my sisters Gillian and her family and Michelene and her family. I just love the holidays! I love family! 

Last night we got our first November Snow of the year. I am not sure if kn happy or annoyed, or both. Snow has good and bad things about it! I guess right now I choose to be happy about it.

Well I think that's all folks! Happy reading! I tried to not be a boring writer! Have a fantabulous weekend

I'm Alive and Well!

Life seems to move faster and faster the older I get. I get busy with living life, and forget to post. Sorry to my readers, who have wondered where I went off too. Yes I am still alive, and living!

I am still living here in Rexburg Idaho. No I am not going to school this fall semester, in fact I am unsure when I will return. I am figuring out a few things in my life right now. I guess I am a firm believer in trying to not go into debt. I went into debt a little bit from my first two semesters at BYU-I. Okay so maybe I haven't always believed in not going into debt, but I can see why we are asked to try to stay out of debt. It makes life tough, and stressful.

I just emailed a lady who has six children, and she will be going to school and her husband will be working a lot. She needed a babysitter. When I thought all was lost and that I would have to move back home, because I had no job, this ad come up and my prayers where answered. Not that going home is a bad thing. In fact I love my family so much and I miss them so much. It's just that it's even harder to find a job in little ole Colville Washington. There really is nobody my age. So no dating opportunities, And well I want to get married... someday. Rexburg is a place for me to be able to try dating people at least, and now I at least have some work available. Anyways, I will be able to stay longer here in Rexburg.

Well That's Just me! Until next time!!

You all have a good rest of your week now!!

Triple Choc Cho Chocolate or Bouncing Berry Bubblegum?

The real question is- Triple Choc-choc-choc-chocolate chunk or Uncle Bubba's Big Belly Butter Brickle?  The answer was easy Both would do! My Best friend and I use to quote this to each other all the time. Especially when we weren't having the best day. We knew that a little treat and jammy time on the couch was the perfect remedy.

I was thinking about the past, Okay not that far in the past, but no the less in the my past. My best friend Kailey Degraw and I would bring out the ice cream and sit on the couch as we would spoon right out of the tub of ice cream which, later saved us many dishes we didn't have to clean. We would talk for hours about the future, what it would be like, where we would be, who we would marry, and all that jazz. She was planning to go on a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and I was hoping to stay and continue with school, and hopefully meet a wonderful young man, who I could marry in the temple.

Of course she is doing exactly what she wanted to do all along. She is serving a Mission in the Oklahoma, Oklahoma City Mission. She has been out for about four months now. Wow I can hardly believe it! She is truly an example to me. I am not doing what I thought I would be doing. I went to school for half a semester more, and decided to take a break. I have no job, I did date a guy for a while on and off, but decided I deserve better than what he was giving. I am not attending school right now. At first I can say I felt like a failure, and sometimes I allow Satan to get the better of me and I allow myself to think lower of myself. My worth didn't go down, but my self image went down. Which is no good, because I am good at many things and have so much to offer, which should be enough

I called my mother the other day asking why people think that they can use and abuse me. I haven't had a lot of luck in the field of dating or with having good friends. Of course Kailey is my best friend and we get a long superb. I could choose to become angry at god for letting me go through hard things in my life especially allowing people to treat me that way, but I look at it as a growing experience. I am going to be stronger for what I go through. God would not put me through these things if he didn't think I couldn't handle it or know that I can grow from it. I am glad that I have a good family who loves me so very much, who look out for me and want me to be happy, and knows I deserve the best. I am also glad to have had the chance to meet good people that treat me good apposed to the ones that haven't been so great. There is opposition in all things, you cannot have sweet if you don't have bitter and you cannot know good with out knowing evil. You need both! I have seen good, nice people and the opposite of that. I am glad Kailey is my friend and I cannot wait till she is back home but for now GOD SPEED SISTER KAILEY DEGRAW

This Is us in A NUTSHELL:)

All Caught up!

Hello Friends and Family and random other readers. What have I been up to since I last blogged?
Well that is certainly a good question. I am currently taking a break from Brigham Young University of  Idaho. To figure out what I am going to do with my life. I am setting up my own little side business. I have another blog for it. It is http://achsahsdomesticbusiness.blogspot.com so check it out, if you are in need of cleaning babysitting, help with putting Sheetrock up or other things pertaining to building. Or if you have other Jobs that you need done. I am super easy going and can work out other prices if the ones I listed are to much or don't work for you.

Anyways I am once again living with my sister Tressie, which she has been so great to let me come stay with her. I am back in the singles ward that she is in again too. Which is fine, because I really do like the people pretty well.

On Wednesday this week I turned 19 years old. wow I can't believe I am that old. When I was younger I never believed it was possible that I would get this old. Then I got a little older and knew it was possible, but I thought it would take forever, but golly I am 19 living away from home. Experiencing my own experiences. Some that are hard, and some not so much, but all which have taught me something. Last night my Friend Joe instigated a Surprised Birthday for me and invited my friend Ashley to help him plan it! ( but we all know that when most guys ask for help planning a party they mean they want you to plan it) My friend Mikael Edelmayer, his cousin also my friend Jared Edelmayer, and my friend Mykal Forsgren planned this party for me. I thought it was great. I get a little nervous when so much attention was on me, but it was sweet for sure. Oh and my Sister Tressie was also invited and was part of the charade:)

A week and a half ago, my mom's side of the family had a big family reunion in Albion Idaho. It was a great time. Lots of  visiting, playing card games, night games, eating food, swimming, and sleeping. It then would all then start all over the next day. There was a few nights the older kids and adults played volleyball in the sandpit which was a total blast. It was kind of fun, because it was at an old campus retreat in Albion. It happen to be historical for our family as well, because My grandmother met her first husband there, which is my oldest uncle's dad. She also met her second husband there too, which brought on the rest of her posterity.

The fourth of July was a little different this year, but just as good. I started my dad out with the Rexburg Idaho fourth of July Parade. It was a bit longer this year than last year. Then I went to my sister, Deidra's house and had Kabobs, with only meet and onion on it. They were fabulous. We also had potatoes, rolls and salad. To finish off our Fourth of July meal we had ice cream cones. We visited, some people started playing card games. Then later that night I went home, but at 10:00pm the city put on some fireworks at the fairgrounds, and since I live pretty close to the fairgrounds I could See the fireworks from the grass in the back of our complex. It was a great day filled with good food, friends and family.

Well I think I am all caught up on what I have been up to the last few months. 

Back at BYUI

I love, love, love my classes. I am so excited that I can be back at BYUI! All my classes seem like they are going to be a lot of fun! Especially Home and Family Management!

I love my roommates too so far! We had fun bonding last night. First we had a mandatory meeting and then we had to meet with the bishop! Afterwards we sang songs together and watched youtube video's.....

.....And when you think life can't get any better you wake up and your roommate is playing feel good music, the sun is coming out, and then you come to class, and many rooms around you are singing hymns or other churchy feel good songs, praying and being taught! I just love BYUI! I love the atmosphere, it is so inviting... Most of the time!

I am so glad I can be apart of this world, and of these experiences! It is the best!

Just Some Thoughts....In My Thinking Spot!

Wow well it has been a while since I've posted, I thought it was about time that I post again. So I am currently back in Rexburg , Idaho. School will be starting back up in week and a half... Yikes! I am so anxious for it to start up again, but so nervous. It's kind of weird to me that each semester is a little nerve racking for me, you'd think I'd get use to new wards and making new friends.

Actually speaking of friends, there is this guy that I so happen to think is super cute And I can't help but want to spend time with him, but for now we are just friends! At first when he told me he wasn't ready to commit and that we should still be friends, it made me so angry with him, but who am I to be angry at someone who is being fully honest with me and wants to still be my friend.
As much as I would like to not have to learn that hard lesson; I am also glad that God loves me so much that he is willing to teach me that lesson! Heavenly Father does love me and I am a daughter of a king! He has to try me so that I may grow and progress to the person that he wants me to become. I must allow my self to love myself and to be happy with life, to allow God to be enough, and then, hopefully someone else can see my beauty and will want to be with me and be happy with me!
I am so thankful that I can be a member of Heavenly Fathers church, and be in a family who loves and supports me and thatI have loving parents who taught me and still do teach me many things! I think sometimes I get in my head that I am done learning and now I have a plan for myself, but there is always room for learning in fact Heavenly Father wants is to keep learning, and he has a plan for us, which doesn't always go in hand with our own plan, but he knows us and knows what will make us happy, and he knows what we can handle, so we would do best to just have faith and hope in him! I have a lot of room for improvement and I need to still learn things, but I know that I can call upon Heavenly Father for help, and on family and friends! We don't have to do all alone, and need to be humble enough to realize that and ask for help!

MOTHERHOOD

I think that I must being prepared to be a mother one day, because I have been glimpses of what a mothers Joy/heartache, mostly joy though. I would use the word Joy in that bringing a child into the world is a work and a wonder. It is a miracle, and a joy. I would say hard ache, maybe  heartache is not the right word to use, but in using I just mean all the things of seeing you kids choice to do wrong, or when they get hurt or sick.

Last night was just another glimpse into being a mother. I have been staying with Kylie my sister and her family for a week and a half now. Well those who know my sister, went in today to the hospital to have her fourth child and first boy. So I am here to help watch the girls for a few days while Kylie remains in the hospital. Last night Jacilynn throw up all over the floor. Anyone who is anyone does not want to clean up puke or smell it. Well for me my stomach gets weak, and I automatically think I am sick and can't handle it. Well Knowing that Kylie had to get up in a hour and a half to go to hospital, and jacilynn wouldn't go let her know that she'd puked, I got up the courage to clean that puke of the floor and tell her to get in the tub. I am sure I almost died, but I just felt sorry for the girl, that she was sick and didn't feel well, wanting to take away the sickness ( without taking her sickness upon me though, of course) 

I will get the opportunity to help Rileigh get to school and pick her up from the bus stop, help the younger too get food in their bellies and changed for the day. Help them bath if they need it. I  believe that the lord is preparing me with kids, in taking care of them and going through hard things, for one day when I will have my own children.

We are told that being a mother is the best job out there, that it will be the greatest joy in our lives to create and bring life into this world, I believe it!

30 lbs Baby!

So just a quick update, I have made my 30 lbs goal. Yep that't right i have lost 30lbs actually I have lost 32lbs. Yeah Me!

I am so proud of myself for pushing on through, even when there were so many temptations to give into.

I could not have done it without friends and family around me to support me. And my heavenly Father. Thank you for all your support. And again sorry for those who read my blog who are tired of reading about my weight lost. I hope that it isn't annoying and more a motivation for you to go for what you think isn't possible, because it is possible, with friends and family there to help you, and a loving heavenly father that wants so much for you! Have some Faith and shoot for that dream, what ever it may be.

20 lbs Goal!

I DID IT! I DID IT!
I finally made my twenty pound lost goal! I want to keep going but I had to post really quick that I succeeded. I am so happy, I could not have done it with out the Lords help!

Anyways this is short and sweet, but i felt that this victory was needed to be posted I will keep you posted on my next goal when I hit thirty total!

I LOSE BIG

OK the title is a little miss leading. I didn't mean to sound as if I am a big loser, or that I was robbed or something, unless you say losing 10 lbs is being robbed then rob me again!

I have decided that dieting is just not for me. Instead I am going to call it a life change. Every time I decide that I am feeling too unhealthy and overweight I try to diet... I lose some pounds and then go back to what I was doing and eating before. Well not again, this girl is going to make a choice for good, to become healthier and to incorporate exercise into my life. I am tired of feeling sick and bad about myself.

I started about two weeks ago and I have not only, just tried to watch my calorie intake, but I am trying to have portion contol. One plate and it can't be heaping, and not to much of one thing. I can say that I am feeling better about myself and my body is thanking me for this choice to be healthier!

I have also realized that it is a process and to not beat myself up if I choose to have a treat once in a while, or to continue to eat things I love, but instead try to make those choices more healthier. I also figured that reading the scriptures and praying for help, staying close to Heavenly Father is helping me be better on this life change. I want to take care of the body that God gave me. Third I find writing down my progress and keeping track of my calorie intake has helped a lot too. I can always go back and look at what I have accomplished and those feelings I had.

I have a father that I love so very much. He has diabetes, and is heavy. I see how tired he is and I don't want to be tired like that or have to give myself a shot everyday to check my sugars or give myself insulin. I think in a since my dad has soon me what I don't want to happen to me. I love him and I hate seeing him so tired and seeing him not feel so good all the time.

I am calling this a life change because I don't want it to be just a one time for a short period of time I want it to be something I work at doing always.

30 days of being productive!

DAY 1


Today I decide to take a walk to the Public Library to get a book. The book I decided on was an art book. I love Art, I love making things beautiful or seeing other peoples art! I did a few sketches today when I got back from the Library. It was fun to sit down and go at it. It feels good to do things I like and things I feel good about. I am by no means a great artist but I enjoy it and I feel I do fairly well. I think this world would be dull with art, because not only is painting or drawing the only art form, but there are sculpures, and I believe Archeticture is an art form. I think any way of putting together something to create beauty or capture moments is art. If you think of it, our world is so full of art, weither we like it or not, there is much. I learn in my College art class to open up to more art. My teacher says "that we get so use to our "NORM" that we don't or we aren't willing to give other wonderful things a chance. I never thought in my life I would like a Silent film, but found they can be intertaining and that they are just an other art form. It's good to have diversity!

Laundry Mat

Well who would have thought that I would ever have too visit the Laundry Mat? Well I sure didn't!
At first I was kind of judgmental, I know I am a terrible person. I thought I am not a bum on the street doing my laundry, I am not super poor, but as I sat there for three and a half hours I came to the conclusion, that I needed to be more positive and less judgmental. That these people could be living in an apartment were there was no laundry machines, or they could have just had their machines break like us, or maybe they can afford other things but not their own machines but, they have money to come do it at a laundry place.
It wasn't a waste after all. I got taught a lesson and I spent that time with my dad. He told me stories of his Grandma and of his childhood today. We talked about my old memories of living next door to my dad's eldest sister Linda and brother in law Jay and their family, in Malad Idaho. It turned out to be a pretty good afternoon even though I was tired and sore. So thanks Dad for a good time. And thank you Heavenly Father for still loving me even after my judgmental thoughts and loving me enough to teach me to be more understanding. Also softening my heart to be more kind and allowing my heart to go out to others.

January 2 2013 The New Year

Wow, it's been a while since I have blogged. So to catch everyone up with what I have been up to. I recently finished fall semester and first year of college at Brigham Young University of Idaho. I also moved home. I will be home for a while... Until April, when I will return to the Burg for spring semester.
I am not really sure what I will be doing while I am home, but I am learning to try to relax and also to be patient with the Lord.
We had a wonderful Christmas. And a good New Years. My Grandma Phillips came to visit and will be around until my brother Elder Cheston Farley returns a week from Thursday from his mission in Belo Horitonte Brazil and gives his report in church, then she will start to make her way back home.
I am excited for this next year and what it will bring for me. 2012 was a good year, with many trials that have strengthened me there was also good times. With the love of my father in heaven and savior Jesus Christ I was able to get past those trials and see the good it brought. I was able to go in so many ways.
So 2013 Bring it on:)