3 WEEKS!

Three weeks in counting till school is letting out for Christmas break. I will also be off track until April. I can hardly believe that it is almost over. I guess time flys when you're having fun! Or maybe it's just when life gets busy:)
By the end of the three weeks I will have finished my first year of college. This is a big deal, because all the while, I complained that it was hard and that I didn't want to do anymore, but now look I am almost finish and I know that I will miss being around my fellow students, taking part in furthering my education.( and yes I know what you are probably thinking.... "And she is going to miss her social life, friends, and boys!" Well your right.) Though school will be out for s while, there is so much to look forward to. Christmas isn't to far off. I love being with my family. My brother Cheston is getting off his mission in January. I am so excited to have my big brother back around. So see there is much to be happy, and thankful for.

HUNGRY

Can I just say I love this little Clara. While being in Boise, this little girl made me so baby hungry.
I don't think I have been so hungry for my own family. We become good friends, she and I.
Her little squeals, her noises, and her smile continued to make me smile. My smile went from ear to ear. She enveloped me with so much happiness.
Her brothers were a bit more crazy, but I sure love those boys too. Cameron was a cutie too. He asked if he could sleep in my bed. He told me he loved me and was sad that I had to leave Sunday. He is Mr. Bossy pants, but I just couldn't help loving the little man.
Gavin and Brogan were fun too. I was so glad to be apart of their Thanksgiving day. It just made me super hungry for my own family:)

THANKSGIVING!

Well this is the first time that I didn't go home or have my parents around for Thanksgiving. At first I wasn't sure about it, well in fact it kind of made me said to think I wouldn't be home this year.
 I realized that it didn't matter though, because I was still with family and it is. The holiday of giving thanks and I can do that anywere that I am. I was so glad I could come to my sisters house in Boise. I had Thanksgiving with Gillian and her family and my other sister Tressie. Also my brother in law Seth had his mother, mother's boyfriend and his grandpa over for dinner as well.
 It was been so. Nice to get away from school and homework, and to get some visiting in. While being here in Boise I got s nice new haircut and some blonde highlights. I love both, but I have to say having blonde hair again is so different, and I know I am going to miss having the dark hair, but it is kind of. Fun to be back to normal, sort of!
 Anyways I just want to say how thankful I am for my family and friends and for the gospel, I am thankful for a loving father in heaven and elder brother. I am so thankful for the prophet and for the quorum of 12 and all my leaders and teaches. I am so thankful for so many wonderful things in my life.

MODESTY

Today my stake had a Relief Society fireside. They talked about how our stake is super immodest.
Our Stake relief society president gave us a visual of what we were showing off to our priesthood leaders. It was really awkward because I didn't want to look at her as she, did the visual but I also knew she was trying to get our attention.
It was kind of sad, as she did this demonstration here family who came, cried, as they watched there mother and wife show the girls the way they looked and dressed. Our stake president and bishop had said it is awkward for them to do interviews when a lady is dressed inappropriately and immodestly. They Also could hardly look at sister Stansfield as she did her demonstration.
I don't think girls understand how big of a compact they have on men, yes the men need to not act on the thoughts they had , but we woman need to dress and act modestly this also means we need to say appropriate words too. We are suppose to help the men honor their priesthood. This means to be modest.
These guide lines are not to chain us down and make us feel like we have no freedom, but they are rules and laws to which we should live by because we want to because we love the lord and want to show him we love him and will obey him. It is also preparing us for our next step, to get married or go on a mission, or do both. How are we going to teach our children the right way to live if we don't live that way ourselves?

Is it Pride thing Or Is it just being Proud?

I can't help show off my work.
I don't feel like I am better then others,or that I an trying to portray that in anyway, I just feel like I am good. I like to show things off that I accomplish, especially when the work is hard and I feel like I did well.
As I sat in the air-walk today I couldn't help but put my interior design work out in front of me, as if it was an art show, were people would aww and ohh at it.

Admitting or Not admitting

 So remember the last time I wrote in my blog about liking a boy? oh yes I thought you would. Well remember when I said that I probably shouldn't admit to the blog that I had certain feelings for a certain boy, because every time that I do this, nothing comes of it. Well I called it. The boy that i was sort of interested in, is currently interested in a different girl.

So I have come to the conclusion that I am going to stop thinking about it.If it happens, it happens. either way I am going to be happy with the life I am currently living. ( little voice in my head "don't lie to yourself Achsah, you can't help be attractive to golden handsome men, you were born to want to be a parent and bring children into the world, it is OK to want this, it is a righteous desire, just be patient") YES I do talk to myself. I do have conversations with myself all the time.

Anyways So to the readers that want to know about my romantic life, you'll have to find out another way, because I am not going to admit anything until the deal, is practically sealed.

Beauty and the Beast

My sister, Tressie, her friend and I went to Beauty and the Beast play at the Rexburg Idaho Madison, High School.

The play was beautiful, so much talent. I really enjoyed being at the play. Lots of funny actors and they had a pit full of good orchestra players. One being my cousin, playing the violin, a friend I worked with at McDonalds here in the Burg. Last there was a boy playing the bass, who was in the family ward I attended when I first moved here. He is also the brother of the guy I went in a date with when I first moved here.

Again I just wanted to say how much fun I had. I wish I could of been apart of something so awesome. Maybe some day.
I always love the story of Beauty and the Beast. Belle is just beautiful and she is so real and kind. She falls in love with the personality of the Beast. Not the look, I just loved it.

TURNING A NEW LEAF OVER:)

Turning over a new leaf in my life. I can honestly say I haven't been super good about reading or studying the scriptures. Or praying for that matter. This or last semester, but I am turning over a new leaf.
Well I have been reading my scriptures since Saturday, and I have been trying to pray morning and at night each day. I have already seen a big difference in my life.
I still have no idea to what I am going to do with my life fully, but I know that i need to continue to pray and read the scriptures, the Lord loves me and wants me to grow. The Lord also will not give me a trial that i cannot accomplish, or the means to accomplish what he has asked me to do.
I just want to say I am so thankful for a loving Heavenly Father & elder brother Jesus Christ. I am so thankful to know that I am a daughter if a king. I am so thankful for a Father who loves me so much that he let's me have these trials because he wants me to learn, and become like him.I am truly blessed!

FAMILY

Well as most of you know this is the month of being thankful. I really feel that we should be thankful for the things we have every month, not just the month of November, but I will voice the things I am thankful for in all my posts this month.
I just want to say that I am so thankful for my family. They are so loving and supportive of me. They are the people who have help to form the person I am today. They are the ones who truly know me, which I am so grateful for.
Some people ask if it is hard to be in a large family, yes sometimes, but mostly no. We have so much fun, and we support and love each other.
Heavenly Father knew what he was doing, when he put us into families.
I am thankful for my ward family and stake family. I am thankful for my immediate family and extended too. I am thankful for my apartment family and FHE family. Though sometimes, my FHE group could use a little a bit of growing up,but I love them none the less. I am so thankful for FAMILIES:)

DECISIONS- GOT TO LOVE THEM!

Hey everyone my new goal is to post at least once a week if not more. I am no longer going to have a Facebook, so if you want to know what I am up to you have come to the right place.

Wow these past few weeks have been up and down, you could say like a roller-coaster ride. Since General Conference, most girls are thinking and acting fast about mission papers. The numbers for missionaries sending in there papers and being called have gone up enormously. It has indeed been a thought that is entered into my mind. To as if i should go on one myself. I wasn't sure If that was something I was going to do,now or ever. I always thought I was going to come to Rexburg ID and go to school and get married fast, but there are more things that could happen now, and I haven't dated anyone in a serious way.

I love my Book of Mormon class and church meetings, and Devotional on Tuesdays. I have learned so much from my leaders and teachers and from the other students here on campus.

Though I still have no idea as to what I am suppose to do, I continue to pray and fast, and read my scriptures. When I find out you all will now:)

I THINK YOU'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE, BUT THAT'S OK!

So I am really good at memorizing all my favorite quotes and, one that I have been saying a lot is from the Pride and Prejudice the Pink bible, when Jack and Lydia go to Vegas to get married, and their authority at the wee chapel on the stripe says to Jack " I think you've been here before, but that's OK!"

Though he is telling him it's OK, today this line hit me in a way I didn't think was possible. With General Conference, Elder Holland's talk was about Peter. Jesus says Peter you are back here at the sea again where I found you before, If I wanted fish I could get fish, but I need disciples, do you love me Peter? Yeah Lord I do love you. Then feed my sheep and my lambs, became my disciple." My point is do I want to be back in the same spot again, or do I want to do all that I can do to be closer to my father in heaven and be a better person? YES! I want that, so I must work at not being back at the same point that I left behind.

I love quoting movies though, you can ask anyone who truely knows me:)

here are just a ferw

"HE.. WAS... NUMBER... ONE"-SPONGEBOB
"BIG, UGLY AND TONEDEAF"- Emperors New Groove
" THOSE ARE MY LEAVES TO CRUNCH.... CRUNCH, CRUNCH ,CRUNCH"- BRENNA HORNBAKER
"I HAVEN'T HAD A BOYFRIEND SINCE LIKE.... THE LAST BOYFRIEND I HAD"- SARAH SMITH
" NO MESS TO MESSY, THIS MESS TO MESSY" ANOTHER CINDERELLA STORY
"AS YOU WISH, OH MY SWEET WESTLEY"- PRINCESS BRIDE
"HE'S DEAD. HE CAN'T TALK. WHOO-HOO-HOO, LOOK WHO KNOWS SO MUCH. IT HAPPENS THAT YOUR FRIEND HERE IS ONLY mostly DEAD. THERE'S A BIG DIFFERENCE BETWEEN MOSTLY DEAD AND ALL DEAD. MOSTLY DEAD IS SLIGHTLY ALIVE. WITH ALL DEAD, WELL, WITH ALL DEAD THERE'S ONLY ONE THING YOU CAN DO. WHAT'S THAT? GO THROUGH HIS CLOTHES AND LOOK FOR LOOSE CHANGE."-PRINCESS BRIDE

anyways as you can see I love Quouting:)

Obituary Of Achsah Farley

Achsah is a loving Daughter, sister, and friend. She is the tenth Child and ninth daughter of Michael and DeAnn Farley. She is an awesome friend and roommate. Her death befell her on September 20th 2012 , when she fell on the stairs, after she worked up the courage to talk to this handsome man. Her little heart couldn't take it and her knees gave out, as she told her sweet innocent story of this leap of faith to her sister.

The memorial service will be held in about one weeks time. at 11:05 at the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day saints in the North Stake building in Rexburg Idaho.

Disclaimer! I am NOT DEAD! I gotcha didn't I? No what really happened was....

 I saw this Dashing, charming young man afar off, when I realized that I had actually met this man a month previous at my sisters single ward her in Rexburg. I was off track for the summer break, so I went to her ward for a couple of weeks until school would start back up.

So a thought came to my mind that I should go talk to him. I just couldn't seem to work up the courage to talk to him. As I walked towards him I got scared and sat at the table behind him. I finally got the courage to say hi to him. The thing was I had no idea what I was going to say, but I managed to say hi and tell him who I was. I then said goodbye, as I walked away it sounded like he said something.... which made the whole experience just that much more awkward.

I decided that I would call my lovely Sister Tressie and tell her the whole story as I was going down the stairs I was laughing so hard, I found myself falling to my death, but wait, someone saved me. She goes by the name Kailey Degraw. While this is all happening I happen to glance up and see my Spring semester FHE BROTHER, Jesse looking at me, SMILING! GAH! If the EXPERIENCE before, WASN'T EMBARRASSING, ENOUGH! I had to stand there by my FHE brother Jesse!

I then finished my story of everything that just occurred. I couldn't stop laughing and I am sure everyone that saw me was smiling.
 Well that is the end of my story! Hope you enjoy it!

Fall, Fall, and Fall

I am so excited for this fall season and semester. Today I went to Porters and bought fall leaf garlands,webs,eyeball salt and pepper shakers and a spider/web window mirror hanging:)

I am so excited for the fun time that we will be having this semester!

Fall is my favorite season, though Spring is nice. I still love the smells you get to experience and the leaves changing into many beautiful colors, that take place during the Fall I love to cook but even more in the Fall.

I am also very excited for this semester. All my roommates seem super nice. I am excited for class too:) I am sorry for those who read my blog and my Facebook cause this post is similar to my Facebook post. I just had to express my excitement for the Fall:)

Living Life

Well recently I am currently living back in the Burg. Not a lot to do with the summer break still in session, but enough I guess to keep me busy.

Codi and her girls will be moving back to Washington, to take part in the Pathway program with my lovely mother. So they are in the mists of packing, cleaning, and moving. Tressie moved down a could blocks to a house, across from the Smith park. She has all of her stuff now i believe. Codi cleans and will be gone soon. So I am going to be taking on the Hills for Codi.

Just recently I went on a date with this guy. It was fun, but I can't seem to get him off of my mind, which isn't fun, because it interferes with my sleep. Well, and it's not a fun game, any of it, the "waiting," the "what does that mean." "does he like me too," I am a woman so I analyze every last detail. I wish it were easier.


Today I went to church with Tressie. It was good to see people I knew or people that I recently just met at church. After church we had a mix and mingle which was fun and the food was taste.

In about two and a half weeks school at BYUI will be starting back up so that will keep me busy. I am excited for it and kind of nervous,but I know it is about time to be getting back into that.

He well that's my life right now, not too exciting but, That's Just Me:)

I JUST WANT!

My brother Tyell is dating this girl named Madi. On there second day my brother asked Madi what she wanted most, what is your Dreams and hopes. Madi answer with I know this is Clay shay but I just want  be a wife and mother.

My thoughts was I din't think it was a clay shay kind of thing. In fact I think it to be a very righteous thing to want. I too want to Meet a fantastic man that loves me and treats me good. I want to be a good wife and have kids and be a good mother.

As I sit on my couch blogging about this I look over and see my Roommate and her boyfriend Cuddle on the couch while they watch Aladdin. Though  I prefer them to not cuddle so much, it's kind of sweet. I see the way Matthew looks at Tiffany and how she at him, I can see how he worships the ground she is on!

Not that I want a man to worship the ground I walk on, but This makes me want someone who looks at me like the way he does at her. Someone who loves me.

Sorry that this just came out to all the people That read my blog. It is a natural, thing to want. really I am happy, just ever so often do I think about this.

FLOWING THOUGHTS)

I am not sure what I  am suppose to write, all I know is that I felt impressed to blog. So this will be a random flow of thoughts that i'll express

Today has been a nice warm day, the sky being baby blue, the trees being green. With a fresh breeze in the atmosphere around me. It has been two months since I have moved into the Pines, and still the hammers and trucks sound off in the background. Early morning to Late at night they work hard to bring this building up into the sky. Off in the distance A jet is flying across that baby blue sky. The sun falling behind the mountains indicating that it is time to settle down and get ready for a good night's rest.

All around are loud students who are out of class and are done with their homework yelling and laughing.. enjoying each others company.  Noise continues into the wee hours of the morning someday's, but we all know that is just part of college adventure.

Birds tweet all day long... this gets me thinking on the this beautiful world even though everything in it is not perfect and there are so many things to learn and grow from, but as I ponder on this world it brings up another thing... the plan of salvation.... of families...being sealed for eternity... of how we can once again be united with Heavenly Father and Jesus my elder ... and how can we not find joy each day just knowing this and why can things not worth it get us down!

I am so thankful for my Family and their love and support... I am so thankful for the gospel in my life.. and for Jesus and his atoning blood for my sins.. that he and only he can understand what I am going through in any circumstance... and I am  thankful that out of all the people in the world he can be there for me. i am so thankful for my friends and their love and support! Hope who ever reads this likes it.. cause That's Just Me:)

How did Christ do it?

Right now I have so much on my mind. Everything lately, is my fault and I think it's not fair, that is what is happening. It's my fault that I don't want to stay at a party I don't feel super comfortable at... and that my "roommate" wants to stay to see someone that is there... so it's my fault that when I leave she doesn't feel comfortable to be alone so it's my fault she doesn't get to see the person she wants to see. I don't like that it's my fault it's not my fault she has a choice to stay and wait to see if this person shows up or not.. to quit always relying on me or a different roommate cause she doesn't like to go alone. It's my fault she is mad and doesn't want to come to a movie because she is still upset about the other thing that happened.

   I am already an emotional person and sensitive when people make fun of me... So it's already bad that my roommates make fun of me when I say Library wrong.. it makes me self conscious and I slow down when I say that word... so not only do they make fun of me for that they make fun of me for other words I say, this makes me never want to talk or tell another story in my life to them...I try to let things go and pick my fights so that I am not always getting upset with them, but sometimes I can't help being upset about this.

How did Jesus do it.... How did he let what people did and said about him go... How did he forgive them so openly and so fast? I do not understand how he did it cause it is a every day battle against having hard feeling against someone. That's Just Me:)

Patience.

Everything has a time and a place.Sometimes I am in a hurry to move on and have the next thing happen. Sometimes I forget that I am not the one in charge, but God is. He has a plan and he knows what is best for me.

 Even though I am going through this hard time ... and I don't always agree with my roommates or others that are around me. I am thankful for them and there consistent of being around and trying to  help me be a better person.

This is a same post and I don't know if anyone is reading it but If  you are just remember that the Lord loves you and its the lord's timing not yours. There is a place and a time for everything! I am not Perfect,
That's JUST ME:)

JUNE 13

Today's post is all about this day. Today has been a wonderful day. I wrote letters to my roommates last night, but they all found them this morning:)
   
     I am so glad that I got up and went  to class then allowing myself to use the excuse that I am tired. I got to talk to so many wonderful people today. I talked to Kelsea and Andrew from my science foundations class. Then I went and browsed the student campus store for an hour just taking some time for my self to think and ponder. Then as I was coming out of the student store I saw Michael a guy that I met from the pines that hangs out with the girls from apartment #15. Then I headed up to Crossroads. While I waited for my roommates Brenna and Tiffany to get out of class and come to met me there, I saw Nate, Michael's roommate:) I said hi and waved to him:) Then my roommates came and we went and grabbed Brunch since it was too late for breakfast and too early for lunch. We visited for a bit and then Brenna and I were going to go home but decided to go to the Spori instead and look at the art. I am glad we could go see that building cause it is way beautiful and I stinkin love it.

    When we were done we decided it was time to go home. We went through the snow and I look up and thought I saw a guy that looked like Gage, taking a double look and then realized it wasn't him, the funny thing though is that Gage was right next to this other guy and he waved and we waited for a second and we talked for a minute. Gah what a good day it has been.

   I got home and Brenna and I checked the mail and there was a package for the apartment from Alice the roomie that had to move back home. There was a letter and a dinosaur toy, bubbles and cookies for each of us:)  This day is so wonderful and I am going to let it keep getting better-
That's Just Me:)

This Says It All!

I GOT BANGS!

I was feeling like I needed a change.  So I cute my bangs yes I cute them, I thought I did pretty good. anyways this is a very sort post but I felt that I would post about my bangs.

BREAD, BREAD AND MORE BREAD

  The past few days I have really been into making bread. I mad rolls the other day, and then my roommate Brenna and I made cinnamon rolls and I thought they turned out pretty good. We took some to our FHE bro's house... our Relief Society Pres. said we spoiled them so much and treated them so good. Well I love to cook and share my work with others, but I can say I probably won't make future FHE bro's food all the time.
 
       Tonight my roommate Alice invited a lot of people over for a pizza night... here again more bread:) My soul couldn't be much happier, but my stomach is probably not going to take it as well. Actually this week has been quite a sad week... Alice is moving home tomorrow, a friend that I care about is into someone other but, hey I don't know if he likes me or if he knows I like him. My roommate "Salt" says it's not over until he has a ring on his finger:)
     
       One really good thing that happened though is that Brenna's father bought Bill Cosby tickets for her birthday. So she took me, it was way good and so much fun. I needed a night out anyways, Brenna has a way of showing up when I needed to be saved. i guess you could say she is my Savior, but not in a sac-religious way if that makes since. Well That's Just Me:)

SAY SOMETHING!

    When you walk by someone, say something, anything nice. Don't just stare at that person coming towards you. It's weird and rude to stare. All you have to say is hi,hello,morning,evening,afternoon, or something like that. 

   When someone says Hi or something nice as they come by have the curtsy to say hi back or smile or something. Don't give them a weird look.

   Saying something can influence someone days in a good way...you may never know how much you have made there day by doing this. Or how much you just changed their life... what if they are dealing with a lot and just needed a your friendly smile and a hello, to know that they are not invisible and cared about.

     

  

(This One is for you From Me to you:))

 Sorry I know this might be Childish to some who read this, BUT it is a serious PET PEEVE of mine and I CAN'T stand it when people act that way and, 

                                                                      That's Just Me:)

CONQUER

Yesterday was a great day, minus a few things that happened that made the day not so wonderful. I hate that just one or two little things can make your day seem bad. Last night I pondered on a few things and then discussed with my roommate what was bothering me and she also said some of the things bothered her.

   We came to conclusion that Satan is not going to have that kind of power over us. It is our life and we will not allow him to dictate our feelings. I feel like I am a wonderful person and that I have a lot to offer, but it's not all about me. I am going to be more of a Christ Like person. There are people who are in a state of mind that is more severe and worst than I am. I am going to be much more Stronger, loving and a caring Servant of the Lord.


      I know that I have to be OK with myself before I help others. So I am going to Love myself all the time and that will allow me to love you and serve others all the time. I Am ready to Conquer the world but of course with the Lords help:) "LET'S CONQUER THE WORLD TOGETHER!"

 

I chose these pictures Because they show us that walking that slack-line is hard and so is life sometimes, but having a shoulder there to help you walk that line it was easier. Sometimes we need others there to help us Conquer each day... but most of all we need our  God, and he  is there and he will always be there. He is just a prayer away..he cares and want us to come to him. He loves us so much and wants only the best for each of us. SO LET'S CONQUER THE WORLD TOGETHER!

GOLDEN

   Last night I was able to come across a blog that really impacted my life. People all around me are so grateful for everything that they have and sometimes they really don't have a lot, but that they are so thankful for the small and simple things. I also saw a post from a friend back home and he expressed his gratitude and love for his parents.
   
   There are so many wonderful people in my life. Last night I prayed for quit some-time asking Heavenly Father why am I am so loved to have these people set in my life to teach me and love me. This blog that I happened across is a boy that  I judged too quickly in the begging, but he is exactly the opposite of what I thought. I think we are friends, but I find myself liking him more and more, by the way he is. I have learned a lot from him though he may have not realized that he has been teaching me all along.

  I asked Heavenly Father to help me be more like Christ. I  want to be that example in other people's lives, the way they have for me. Even though they have had trails and things about them that I don't always like. Then again we all have things about us that we are struggling with. My roommate told me the other day that she tries to live by this saying " Hate the sin, and not the sinner" Cause we are suppose to be the Lords servants and love  those around us.

    I am so thankful for these Golden people In my life. They all become This Beautiful Golden color to me...when I learn to love them and not judge. Each of them bring something color to my life:)

I thought this was a good picture to go along with my post it is the City of Gold and from the movie Eldorado:)

COURAGE!

Our Bishop talked about taking each day to take 20 minutes of courage to talk  to someone else, to tell someone how we feel, to say hi, or smile at someone, to get out of our comfort zone.
I  for one can say its hard and sometimes you get hurt, but it makes me such a better person i feel, because I am stretching myself to be more out going to those around me.I am stretching myself in ways i never thought i could stretch!
I made a new friend today, and she was super nice, she invitited me to come hang with her tonight at a dance which should be a lot of fun:)
being courageous is a wonderful... thing... you'll be better for it:)

RED IS SO BLUE

I am so blue this weekend! He was nice and sweet but it isn't going to happen, that isn't even the sad part... i am not sure what is.. just that I wanted to be distracted this weekend with good things and all the roommates are doing their own thing tonight, Its Friday the start of a weekend off of school and I have nothing going for me this weekend. 

 I hate that I am feeling so bad and down especially because I understand Him, and what he was feeling and i am not upset with him...he became golden to me! I just wanted to do something tonight and yet I am alone tonight... its quite sad. 

Well enough of my BLUENESS... and on to better happier things!

Brownie Boy

Brownie Boy... is my recent crush:)..  I know it seems kind of pointless to write about each  anything he crush that I have because it seems to not ever work out and then I hate that I had ever posted anything at all. but here it goes for those who have not heard it come from my mouth.I like this guy his nick name my roommates and i gave him... is brownie boy... i know kind of weird! He came to  gain this nickname by my endless endeavors of  trying to please boys with my vigorous cooking skills. so  after being in this class with Brownie Boy for three days a week, 4 classes total a week and all but one being an hour long... I couldn't help but start to like him. So i know this is kind of stocker-ish, but i realized he was walking in front of me and i wanted to get close and hear him say anything.then he stopped to talk to a roommate of his and i was still walking in front of him. He happened to catch up to me and I held the door open. i think we both thought the other was going to class in the snow building cause we didn't stop long enough to talk. I took on set of stairs and he took the other.. we came down at the same time and looked up and saw each other and grinned.. i think we both felt a little weird. so i slowed down... but  i guess not enough because i caught up,because  when i  happen to look up across the way he was walking and looking at me with a big grin on his face. so i kind of freaked out and grabbed my phone i called my roommate and after a few rings hung up after it was safe to say he was at his apartment and i was on my way home with no more weird encounters to interrupt my walk. Later The most brilliant idea of mine came to mind I was going to make him Brownies Hint brownie boy:) and i was going to take them over. he happen to not be there but, i left them with his roommate!

All i can say is i am as jittery as ever and i can't help be emotionally excited and sick to my stomach:)

HE KNOWS!

I know that my last post was on being positive, and this may not seem positive, but I feel like I have had a
lot of positive thoughts and words said. I can't believe I allow Satan  to push me up and down these hills. i know trials are good and that they are for our profit and learning. Today I have had a lot of trials hitting me from every angle... like my paper that went wrong and then i fixed it and had someone critic it.. and then i know this one is kind of lame but I like this guy and it looks like he is not interested and I just feel so upset today.... I have felt like I have become closer to my savior these past weeks with reading in the Book of  Mormon.. and putting my faith in my heavenly father's hands. So I know that Satan is coming after me to pull me down to the depths of the sea, but I will get the better of him and i will continue to strive to be the better person. I am going to be happy with myself and with those around me:) heavenly father loves me and will not let me fall to the depths of the sea.

POSITIVE

I have deicded that I am going to be more positve to the things and people around me. I have made a tally board for my apartment and told my roommates what I am going to do and asked them to be apart of it
My mom told me a story of a negative clicker that became depressing so the person switched to a positve clicker and it has changed her life for the better so i am going to be  better. there is always room for improvement in each persons life. we are always in need of change,,,, to better ourself. we are all inmature to a point we all have space to grow and improve:)

CAN I TAKE A BUMBLE BEE?

I thought this was too funny to pass up

A couple of weeks ago Napua and Leilani were super sick.. and so I bought them some flip flops and some BUBBLE BATH stuff. They were super excited about.. Anyways a couple days a go i was babysitting the girls and I had to get ready for work so I said I was going to take a shower and both the girls asked if they could take a BUMBLE BEE. At first I had no idea what they were taking about ..and then they said can we take a princess bumble bee... I realized they wanted a bubble bath. ha ha I thought it too funny:)

CYBERBULLYING

I just watched a movie on cyberbullying and it was a very said movie. I just wanted to put my thoughts down about this subject. i think sometimes people don't always understand how much their words and actions effect others. Whether online or in public... offline. Everyone handles that sort of thing differently, but it seems like a lot of times they try to take their lives or have eating disorders, or cutting wrists problems. Nobody should have to feel like they are dumb or that something is wrong with them... just because they are different or have different views. God made us all different on purpose .. everyone has something to offer in this world. It would be very boring if we were all the same. In the movie that I watched it was very said her friend was the one that caused the most harm to her.. she made a fake profile "James" and lied about sleeping together... a lot of people at school already teased her and so this online thing really effected her.... which resulted in trying to kill her self... she got some help and realized that she isn't the only person being bullied. So I guess I just want to remind others to think before posting or before saying something that might be hurtful.

Once upon a time...

Once upon a time there was this girl she wasn't like any ordinary girl she was very extraordinary in fact. She was kind of a shy one but she always tried to be friendly and open to her best. At work there happen to be this dark haired hansom man waiting for her. He too was a shy sort of man... but there was something about him that was not shy. One night the beautiful lady asked the hansom man to have a ball with her. He was good to come and they had a really good time.. after that night it seemed as if it was only a dream and nothing more... but a few days later he contacted this beautiful lady and there was nothing that could hide her happiness.Now all she needed was..to keep being his friend and inviting him to have a ball with her.

sorry that this doesn't really show if it is a sad or happy ending yet but I'll keep you all posted about the princess and the prince's story:)

The Cat and The Dog

Cats are plain hard to get sometimes they act like your pal and then the next they don't want to be touched or have anything to do with you and then the next minute they seem interested...Dogs love to be loved they are loyally trying to be your pal.. even at first they seem like they don't like the cat.. in the end they seem to become friends right... well not in all cases... just when the cat decides that she's not going to play plain hard to get.....the dog gets all tough and backs off..acting as if he isn't curious at all!

Interesting isn't it... the cat and the dog might as well skip that part... are we friends or enemies?

Butterfinger Blizzards

The very first time your eyes connect with the menu for blizzards... you'll begin to scan over each option carefully picking out each pro and each con of each dessert and the quality each one has... and then when you think there is no hope in finding the perfect dessert your eyes land on the Butterfingers blizzard...but wait... Then you taste it and the sound of angles sing out in joyous cries...yes that's right in joyous cries:) you began to savor each bite as if it is your very first time tasting it...you begin to look at your dessert and the thought occurs in your mind that you Will not be seeing that perfect dessert for a day... or days..weeks.. months and you don't want to ever be with out... because this treat just make you whole and happy...and warm!
And even though this dessert is so amazing it is continually trying to improve it's quality... it's character:)

We all truly know that this post isn't really talking about Butterfingers blizzards right?

GLOOMY DAYS ALWAYS HAS SOMETHING FUN IN STORE

Our day has been Cloudy and very cold.. but that is what you get when your are still in the month of Febuary living in Idaho!

Instead of sitting around doing nothing much... I gave the little girls make overs , nails and their hair.. they really injoyed this:0 and for lunch we are going to watch a movie and have "homemade resturant food" which for me is that game you play when you are young... if you have never played that game... you've never lived! ha ha I am just kidding but it is something I played a lot.... so..... that is what we will be doing!

CHANGE HAPPENS!

There are changes consistently being made around us.... the question is... is it for the better or worst? I love change.. but I also struggle with it at times. I know that life isn't always easy and that we must be tried... so that we can learn and grow and progress to be greater people. This week hasn't only been sad and hard for me but for some of my family. It is really sad and hard for me to see someone and not only one person this week but several.. that I love so dearly turn away the gospel and head down a stream of sadness and misery... they may not think so.. especially because right now they feel like they are floating towards heaven but that is a BIG...FAT...UGLY...BIRD DECEIVING YOU.......SATAN is REAL & HE WANTS US TO FAIL:(

I hope to stay strong and be that shining example to those I love... I choose the this picture of the fall season because one I happen to love fall but also I thought it did a good job showing change

WHAT MATTERS MOST!

I just wanted to post a few things that Matter to me!

I want to say how much I love my Heavenly Father and his Son Jesus Christ For their Love.. and even though I may not always get an answer right away I know that they love me and want me to succeed.

I want all my family to know that I love them and want the best for each and everyone of them:) I also want them to know how thankful I am for their support in my decisions!

I want my friends to know that I love them too.. and am so thankful for their support and their consistent pushing for my success:)

I am so thankful for the the bible but even more the Book Of Mormon.. it has helped me with so many things in my life.

I am so thankful for a loving leaders.

I am so thankful for temples... because they are bind families together and with out the priesthood to work these ordinances .. it wouldn't be possible!

Each of the these.. are Dropplets being added to my pond!

It's Kind Of A Hate/Love Relationship!

I Love FHE it is always supper fun...I also enjoy watching Once Upon A Time aftwards:), but when you go to see a certain fellow and another girl is flirting with that fellow it becomes a Hate/Love kind of thing! It is hard for me to know if i should just back off or keep fighting to get to know this guy!

LIFE

1. I am currently attending a singles ward here in the "Burg" and this last week i meet a supper nice and cute boy:)
2. I am also attending Institute and we are studying the B.O.M..which i am excited for...after institute thi lat for:)...after institute this last week i went country dancing..which was a lot of fun:)
3. i currently found out that my application is complete and now i am just waiting for a reply...which shouldn't be too long:)