How did Christ do it?

Right now I have so much on my mind. Everything lately, is my fault and I think it's not fair, that is what is happening. It's my fault that I don't want to stay at a party I don't feel super comfortable at... and that my "roommate" wants to stay to see someone that is there... so it's my fault that when I leave she doesn't feel comfortable to be alone so it's my fault she doesn't get to see the person she wants to see. I don't like that it's my fault it's not my fault she has a choice to stay and wait to see if this person shows up or not.. to quit always relying on me or a different roommate cause she doesn't like to go alone. It's my fault she is mad and doesn't want to come to a movie because she is still upset about the other thing that happened.

   I am already an emotional person and sensitive when people make fun of me... So it's already bad that my roommates make fun of me when I say Library wrong.. it makes me self conscious and I slow down when I say that word... so not only do they make fun of me for that they make fun of me for other words I say, this makes me never want to talk or tell another story in my life to them...I try to let things go and pick my fights so that I am not always getting upset with them, but sometimes I can't help being upset about this.

How did Jesus do it.... How did he let what people did and said about him go... How did he forgive them so openly and so fast? I do not understand how he did it cause it is a every day battle against having hard feeling against someone. That's Just Me:)