The Achsah Show

It's that time again to update my blog. I know guys I am terrible at blogging; I am practically a lost cause.

Whats new on the Achsah show? Well lets see I just reapplied to school here at Brigham Young University of Idaho. I was accepted for Winter/ Spring. I am so excited but so overwhelmed by this big change that is coming my way. I haven't officially decided what major I am going to go into, but I thought that I at least needed to go back and work towards some kind of schooling. This is probably crazy, well at least I've been told so. The plan is to work and go to school full time. I know it is absolutely insane of me to try this, but I feel that I need to stay with my job, and I feel that school is also important. You can't succeed or fail until you try. You also fail when you stop trying. I also have to juggle my calling, church functions, a boyfriend, family, friends, sleep and eating. I am ready though to rise to the challenge! Speaking of boyfriends though, that will take us to the next order of business.

I am not dating Steve anymore. Yeah didn't see that one coming. It's okay though because the lord watches out for all of his children. I know that he has a plan for each of us, and we need to have faith and hope in him and in the plan he has for us, even though we may not understand it. One of my favorite quotes is from this last general conference (Fall October 2014). It's a talk called Approaching the Throne of God with Confidence by Elder Jorg Klebingat Of the Seventy. He gives us six points to fixing our own spiritualness. The last one he lists is, "Accept trails, setbacks, and "Surprises" as part of your mortal experience." This talk has helped me so much, because it's true we are here to be tested, to experience life and different situations. Steve was a great guy, and I thought he was the one for me. The thing is we could have been good for each other, but we would have not been the best for each other. He needed someone to be at his level and I needed someone to be more at my level. I am dating a guy from Springfield Oregon. His name is William Cook. The funny thing is, I wasn't going to date anyone for a while, but I meet Will and he is very charismatic and very charming. Every person I see him interact with always seems like they are in a better mood. He has a way of making you feel better about life, about yourself. You will never feel sorry or that you wasted time talking to him. As we continued to see each other, we both came to the conclusion that we both enjoyed each others company. At first we talked about going slow. His roommates and my sisters both laughed at us. They didn't think that going slow, was going to work. Needless to say they were right! Only a week after talking about going slow, we had a date. we went out to the Parker Idaho Elementary school; we went star gazing and talked about anything and everything. When he dropped me off that night, we both agreed that we had fun and we enjoyed each others company. That night we decided to go steady.
  Man can I tell you that it has been one of the best decisions I have made. Not only is he handsome, but he is also very caring, very aware of me, sweet and kind to both my family and I and many other wonderful things. As noted above he is very likable:). We have been dating for a month and a half now, and we have both said it feels longer than that. I go back to thinking that if things would have continued with Steve, I would have not met Will, and what a shame that would have been. Heavenly Father loves us, he know us, he understands us, and can see the bigger picture.

I am still currently working for the Rexburg Madison School District. It is a challenge, but it is so rewarding working with the special needs' kids and the preschool kids. Some days are tougher and rougher. I wrestle a little girl usually once a week if not once a day. She is absolutely adorable, but so mischievous, and she knows it too. The days that she is happy but naughty, she thinks of it as a game. Sometimes it is very frustrating, but other days I can't help but smile and laugh. I taught her to say my name, so on the days where it has been a little more taxing, and she says hello or goodbye using my name, I can't help but smile and let go all the frustration . All of the children are so smart and amazing. They truly are special sons and daughters of God. I feel privileged to know them and work with them. I am happy to be apart of their learning. The preschoolers are fun and I have made friends with all of them. we sing songs, and play I spy a lot. This set of twins always wants to play. They will start out by saying "I spy with my little eye something that starts with the letter E or grass or green etc".. and sometimes its the very thing they spy and other times as I guess different things,they will tell me ,no silly its the sky not the grass. One of the kids gets on and says "hey i'm back I cam back to you, did you miss me?" Another pretends to wrestle/ box with me. They are all so cute, sweet and funny. Oh I sure do love my job, for the most part;)
well folks thats all for now.

LIFE.

        It's that time again! I don't have a whole lot to write about, but hopefully enough to keep your interest. I am officially ( well I have been for almost a month now) an adult. No more teenage years. How is this even possible you may ask? I just was this little girl with blonde pigtails the other day right? Wrong! I know this may be hard to grasp, but I am a big girl now. My nieces and nephews were talking to me one day about how cute my other niece Clara was and how much she has grown up. I told them that I was alive when all my nieces and nephews were born and have seen them grow up. Some of them didn't believe me and others just chuckled, as if they were trying to believe it but felt weird talking about it. I than told them that I was a baby at one time in my life. This was almost too much for their little minds to handle. One of them said no way you could have never been a baby you are to big to be one of those. It made me laugh, but also contemplate this awe moment. That nephew was right, it is kind of crazy to think about me being this little baby and needing someone to feed and change me, to burp me, to help me in everything. So many of us have grown up and have come to this stage at our lives were we are pretty independent. As I kept pondering on this subject, it made me aware that we are in a sense still babies to our Heavenly father some more  spiritually grown up then others, but he wants to be apart of our lives and we need him in ours. Maybe its just me but I think about being grown up now and living away from my parents, I still call often and ask for advice, I still need to hear my mothers voice and know that my parents are okay and are there for me.  I am independent for the most part but we all depend on someone wither it be our siblings, our aunts/ uncles, parents, grandparents, spouse or a friend/leader. We all started out as an intelligent, God took us and made us into something more. we all started out as an egg and grew and continue to grow. anyways enough on this I just though it was kind of cool to be reminded that we came from this place, where we trained for this life, and in this life train for our next life.

I am taking this next part of the post away from the spiritual thought. It has been a crazy last few months, of work,  and school for Steve. It's been kind of hard how busy he is. He finished his finals with all passing grades. He has worked so hard to do well in those classes and it has paid off for him. This next semester is going to be tough as well because this is his one shot to get into the nursing program. I know he can do it, it just means that his time with me wont be as much. He also just spent a week over by Boise ID, up in the mountains. He was volunteering at a cancer camp. It was a good experience for him and he also received a 5,000 dollar scholarship for school. I know he had fun but is glad that it is over. He current is on a trip with his family until this Friday. He has been sending me picture and text messages every day. It has been hard not seeing him all the time, but i know he is having a good time, and I have found that I have to find things to do. i have been practicing my drawing. I have been exercising a lot and trying to eat healthier and I have been reading and trying to find new adventures. Steve went to Vegas with his family. I know not the most exciting place, but they have found a lot of good things and stayed away from the bad that is there. In eight days I get to start making my way home. I am overjoyed to go see my family. That will have to be in another post. Steve and I have been dating 4 1/2  months now. can you believe the time it is crazy how time can fly.
 well readers my computer time is running out, so I will have to end my post here. I will try to post some pics.

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Lady's and Gentlemen.  I am here once again to inform you with the  facts, okay maybe the opinions of my life. For your sake I hope that you will be able to read and fine excitement in my blog. First on the list!
Summer has let out for the Madison school District. I was asked by my boss if I would continue to stay on for the duration of summer school. It's a love/ hate relationship. You see I love kids, I love working.. (for the most part anyways), I love to stay busy, but every person needs a break from the normal activities that fill our every day lives. Can I say that I am actually really excited that I am almost half way through summer school and can hardly wait for it to end? I am ready for camping, visiting, swimming, and most of all being able to do whatever and not be constricted to only a few hours before I have to go back to work.

I am still living in the burg. The other day my dear friend Sister Kailey Degraw wrote to me and asked me if I would still be in Rexburg in January. I told her that Unless I die, or Heavenly Father tells me to move I probably will be here a great portion of may years to come. I like Rexburg pretty well, and as most of you know... well if you keep up with my blog or with my facebook, I am dating a young man here. So as I see it if  our relationship continues to flourish I will be here for  many a year.

For those who have not read or heard the story of this mighty knight on his trusty stead, I will brief you, quickly. We meet in March 2014. He is in my YSA ward (young Single Adult ward). The first time I saw him if I may say, I thought he was not very attractive and his mannerism for some reason made me think of Mr. Bean. Weird huh? Well with a few days difference I found myself really liking this guy. I invited him to come watch Avengers with my Friend Jessica and I after Home Evening. The whole night I kept seeing his hand get closer and closer. By the end of the movie his hand was touching mine. We continued to see each other... at the library, at church, at Home Evening and institute. He than asked me to go on a date. Our first official date was to a musical play put on by BYUI students. It was the best date I have ever been on. That next week after our ward talent show, by the way he got me to sing at with him, asked me to be his girlfriend. From there we have had many laughs, many interesting moments, some tough times, lots of good times. He continues to amaze me and he treats me like the princess and future queen I am to be. I look forward to having many more experiences with him. He is an amazing guy, and I just love him to pieces.

As many of you may know I have two sisters expecting another child this year. I also have two sister in-laws expecting their first child this year as well. I have 18 nieces and nephews and I am excited to be having more added to our family. I also have a sister who is doing Chemo and Radiation and ask that you will keep her in your prayers. She just started her first treatment today. She went in for pretesting yesterday. I love her so much and I wish I could be there for all of her treatments, but since I can't I ask that any who read this pray for my sister Codi. Thank you.  Well folks I think that is all for now. have a great day and a grand week.

UPDATE:)

Hello Again. I think it is funny that almost every time I start my blog post or a journal entry it's hello it's been along time. Y'all can see that this is not my strongest point, but I feel accomplish If I get at least 2 posts a year in. What Can I say I get busy living life and enjoying it. It is kind of like those times, when you bring a camera to a reunion or function and you don't hardly take it out. That is because you are enjoying the function in and at the moment. It would be fun to always remember those moments, so I am going to try to be better about blogging and keeping a journal.

Well new updates need to be made. I am still living in the ice burg of Idaho. We all thought Spring was coming but I woke up to lots of snow and it is still snowing. I should have known that it was a possibility in Rexburg. I am trying to be thankful though for the snow, because we could use the moisture.

I still love my job working as an Special Needs Bus Aide for Madison School District. The kids get crazy sometimes, but that is normal. They are just being kids. I am getting more comfortable with them, as they are with me. I am getting to be their friends slowly but surely. We are on Spring break until Tuesday. It has been nice, but I think I am getting ready to be back to a schedule already.

I meet this boy named Steve Downs, Three weeks ago from today. He asked for my number and a date on a couple of Monday's ago. I agreed... since then... we have gone on many outings,  sent many texts, and had a phone call, and then one day he asked me to be his girlfriend. I said yes! He is amazing. He is the kind of guy I always wanted to date and possible marry. He is a true gentleman, and he is kind and loving. We can talk about anything and everything. He makes me laugh daily and he brightens my life so much. We talk about the Gospel daily, and I can see how important it is to him. I can see how much he loves Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. Also I can see how much he loves his family! He makes me feel like a loved important daughter of God. He worthily holds the priesthood. I could go on and on, but this is just giving you an idea how amazing he is. My dad told my mom to tell me that August would be a good time for a wedding... I just laughed! I will keep you all posted if that is heading our way:)

Well Friends Family, acquaintances.. strangers That is all, This is me signing off.. Have a great Sabbath and a great coming week. Remember Heavenly Father Loves you and so does Jesus Christ Our elder Brother and Savior.

Just living it up In Rexburg

After much looking, applying to jobs, rewriting my resume, I finally landed a job. I am working as a Bus Aide for Rexburg Idaho Madison Public School. I aide for a special needs bus. I get to work several hours a day with lots of different kids. I love kids, so this job is perfect for me. There is this really cute kid that rides in the morning. His name is flash. I think he was kind of nervous of me helping him, but of late we have become buddies. He loves my black leather gloves and wants to hold my hand until we drop him off for school. Today was so good, you can never have a bad day with these kids, even if they aren't always happy. they seem to put a smile on my face one way or another. Flash was in a super good mood today, as I helped him get buckled in his seat, he held my hand, but that isn't all he was all smiles. It just melts my heart. There is this other kid that rides and his name is Joseph. He is a Latino, so his English isn't always good, but it doesn't seem to matter to me. I just listen to him talk and try to answer him the best I can. On Monday I wore my salmon colored shirt and it has a big bow on the front of it. He told me he liked my shirt and it was pretty. He was all smiles too:) I have to share about this one kid that rides the bus, and than we can move on. His name is Timothy, he has four brothers and one sister. out of all the kids, Timothy and his brother Matthew have autism, and they think his younger brother Dwight has autism too, but it is still too early to tell for sure. Anyways Timothy is a handful and sometimes not a very nice, happy camper, but I still talk to him every morning and every afternoon. The other day I asked him how he was his response was " Fine, hey it's you again" ( it was said in a none appraising way) I said yep Get use to it, ill be around for awhile. I asked him if he was excited for school. He said "uh no, now go away." Today as we went home, it was snowing and he was singing jingle bells over and over and over until we dropped him off. I don't know if we are friends yet, but I am determined to make friends with him, especially because he makes me laugh.

Okay enough about my Job. I am no longer dating Mikael. To be honest it was really hard at first. I think I tried to hide it. In the process of that I allowed myself to not feel anything for a week. When I finally opened my heart it hit, and not gradually or soft, but hard and all at once. After a few days of being sad about it, I felt that i still needed to be patient with him, but that I do not need to wait around for him to figure out what he wants. And who knows, he may never want me again. So I was able to grieve, get pass that even if he doesn't want me, I still have worth and I will find someone that does want me.

That brings me to the next line of business! I probably shouldn't put this on here, especially because everytime that I put something on here about my crush, it ends up not working out. I guess that is silly because I don't believe in vudoo and I believe that the Lord has a plan so if it doesn't work out it's because it isn't suppose to work out. I met this guy in my ward. He is super nice, super cute. super amazing:) ha ha I had him over for Sunday dinner and we watched the Newer Winnie the Pooh movie. We talked and laughed and just had a good time. I would really love to get to know him more, and potentially see if anything could go anywhere. I loved how he talked about his mission. I loved how he talked about his family and his nephews. It is hard for me to get out of my shell sometimes, but I felt it went well. I saw him at FHE and we talked and he smiled at me. It was kind of funny as I talked to one of the other aides for the buses, she said it is funny how LDS girls who get hugged or nudge elbows with a guy get weak at the ankles and have tickles running up and down their body. I had to agree that it was funny but true, and oh man I am proud to say I am a LDS girl who gets weak at the ankles when a guy hugs me or nudges me ( mostly in a guy I am interested in) 

Well that is all for now. I will stop blubbering. Hope you all have a great rest of your week.