Triple Choc Cho Chocolate or Bouncing Berry Bubblegum?

The real question is- Triple Choc-choc-choc-chocolate chunk or Uncle Bubba's Big Belly Butter Brickle?  The answer was easy Both would do! My Best friend and I use to quote this to each other all the time. Especially when we weren't having the best day. We knew that a little treat and jammy time on the couch was the perfect remedy.

I was thinking about the past, Okay not that far in the past, but no the less in the my past. My best friend Kailey Degraw and I would bring out the ice cream and sit on the couch as we would spoon right out of the tub of ice cream which, later saved us many dishes we didn't have to clean. We would talk for hours about the future, what it would be like, where we would be, who we would marry, and all that jazz. She was planning to go on a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and I was hoping to stay and continue with school, and hopefully meet a wonderful young man, who I could marry in the temple.

Of course she is doing exactly what she wanted to do all along. She is serving a Mission in the Oklahoma, Oklahoma City Mission. She has been out for about four months now. Wow I can hardly believe it! She is truly an example to me. I am not doing what I thought I would be doing. I went to school for half a semester more, and decided to take a break. I have no job, I did date a guy for a while on and off, but decided I deserve better than what he was giving. I am not attending school right now. At first I can say I felt like a failure, and sometimes I allow Satan to get the better of me and I allow myself to think lower of myself. My worth didn't go down, but my self image went down. Which is no good, because I am good at many things and have so much to offer, which should be enough

I called my mother the other day asking why people think that they can use and abuse me. I haven't had a lot of luck in the field of dating or with having good friends. Of course Kailey is my best friend and we get a long superb. I could choose to become angry at god for letting me go through hard things in my life especially allowing people to treat me that way, but I look at it as a growing experience. I am going to be stronger for what I go through. God would not put me through these things if he didn't think I couldn't handle it or know that I can grow from it. I am glad that I have a good family who loves me so very much, who look out for me and want me to be happy, and knows I deserve the best. I am also glad to have had the chance to meet good people that treat me good apposed to the ones that haven't been so great. There is opposition in all things, you cannot have sweet if you don't have bitter and you cannot know good with out knowing evil. You need both! I have seen good, nice people and the opposite of that. I am glad Kailey is my friend and I cannot wait till she is back home but for now GOD SPEED SISTER KAILEY DEGRAW

This Is us in A NUTSHELL:)

All Caught up!

Hello Friends and Family and random other readers. What have I been up to since I last blogged?
Well that is certainly a good question. I am currently taking a break from Brigham Young University of  Idaho. To figure out what I am going to do with my life. I am setting up my own little side business. I have another blog for it. It is http://achsahsdomesticbusiness.blogspot.com so check it out, if you are in need of cleaning babysitting, help with putting Sheetrock up or other things pertaining to building. Or if you have other Jobs that you need done. I am super easy going and can work out other prices if the ones I listed are to much or don't work for you.

Anyways I am once again living with my sister Tressie, which she has been so great to let me come stay with her. I am back in the singles ward that she is in again too. Which is fine, because I really do like the people pretty well.

On Wednesday this week I turned 19 years old. wow I can't believe I am that old. When I was younger I never believed it was possible that I would get this old. Then I got a little older and knew it was possible, but I thought it would take forever, but golly I am 19 living away from home. Experiencing my own experiences. Some that are hard, and some not so much, but all which have taught me something. Last night my Friend Joe instigated a Surprised Birthday for me and invited my friend Ashley to help him plan it! ( but we all know that when most guys ask for help planning a party they mean they want you to plan it) My friend Mikael Edelmayer, his cousin also my friend Jared Edelmayer, and my friend Mykal Forsgren planned this party for me. I thought it was great. I get a little nervous when so much attention was on me, but it was sweet for sure. Oh and my Sister Tressie was also invited and was part of the charade:)

A week and a half ago, my mom's side of the family had a big family reunion in Albion Idaho. It was a great time. Lots of  visiting, playing card games, night games, eating food, swimming, and sleeping. It then would all then start all over the next day. There was a few nights the older kids and adults played volleyball in the sandpit which was a total blast. It was kind of fun, because it was at an old campus retreat in Albion. It happen to be historical for our family as well, because My grandmother met her first husband there, which is my oldest uncle's dad. She also met her second husband there too, which brought on the rest of her posterity.

The fourth of July was a little different this year, but just as good. I started my dad out with the Rexburg Idaho fourth of July Parade. It was a bit longer this year than last year. Then I went to my sister, Deidra's house and had Kabobs, with only meet and onion on it. They were fabulous. We also had potatoes, rolls and salad. To finish off our Fourth of July meal we had ice cream cones. We visited, some people started playing card games. Then later that night I went home, but at 10:00pm the city put on some fireworks at the fairgrounds, and since I live pretty close to the fairgrounds I could See the fireworks from the grass in the back of our complex. It was a great day filled with good food, friends and family.

Well I think I am all caught up on what I have been up to the last few months. 

Back at BYUI

I love, love, love my classes. I am so excited that I can be back at BYUI! All my classes seem like they are going to be a lot of fun! Especially Home and Family Management!

I love my roommates too so far! We had fun bonding last night. First we had a mandatory meeting and then we had to meet with the bishop! Afterwards we sang songs together and watched youtube video's.....

.....And when you think life can't get any better you wake up and your roommate is playing feel good music, the sun is coming out, and then you come to class, and many rooms around you are singing hymns or other churchy feel good songs, praying and being taught! I just love BYUI! I love the atmosphere, it is so inviting... Most of the time!

I am so glad I can be apart of this world, and of these experiences! It is the best!

Just Some Thoughts....In My Thinking Spot!

Wow well it has been a while since I've posted, I thought it was about time that I post again. So I am currently back in Rexburg , Idaho. School will be starting back up in week and a half... Yikes! I am so anxious for it to start up again, but so nervous. It's kind of weird to me that each semester is a little nerve racking for me, you'd think I'd get use to new wards and making new friends.

Actually speaking of friends, there is this guy that I so happen to think is super cute And I can't help but want to spend time with him, but for now we are just friends! At first when he told me he wasn't ready to commit and that we should still be friends, it made me so angry with him, but who am I to be angry at someone who is being fully honest with me and wants to still be my friend.
As much as I would like to not have to learn that hard lesson; I am also glad that God loves me so much that he is willing to teach me that lesson! Heavenly Father does love me and I am a daughter of a king! He has to try me so that I may grow and progress to the person that he wants me to become. I must allow my self to love myself and to be happy with life, to allow God to be enough, and then, hopefully someone else can see my beauty and will want to be with me and be happy with me!
I am so thankful that I can be a member of Heavenly Fathers church, and be in a family who loves and supports me and thatI have loving parents who taught me and still do teach me many things! I think sometimes I get in my head that I am done learning and now I have a plan for myself, but there is always room for learning in fact Heavenly Father wants is to keep learning, and he has a plan for us, which doesn't always go in hand with our own plan, but he knows us and knows what will make us happy, and he knows what we can handle, so we would do best to just have faith and hope in him! I have a lot of room for improvement and I need to still learn things, but I know that I can call upon Heavenly Father for help, and on family and friends! We don't have to do all alone, and need to be humble enough to realize that and ask for help!

MOTHERHOOD

I think that I must being prepared to be a mother one day, because I have been glimpses of what a mothers Joy/heartache, mostly joy though. I would use the word Joy in that bringing a child into the world is a work and a wonder. It is a miracle, and a joy. I would say hard ache, maybe  heartache is not the right word to use, but in using I just mean all the things of seeing you kids choice to do wrong, or when they get hurt or sick.

Last night was just another glimpse into being a mother. I have been staying with Kylie my sister and her family for a week and a half now. Well those who know my sister, went in today to the hospital to have her fourth child and first boy. So I am here to help watch the girls for a few days while Kylie remains in the hospital. Last night Jacilynn throw up all over the floor. Anyone who is anyone does not want to clean up puke or smell it. Well for me my stomach gets weak, and I automatically think I am sick and can't handle it. Well Knowing that Kylie had to get up in a hour and a half to go to hospital, and jacilynn wouldn't go let her know that she'd puked, I got up the courage to clean that puke of the floor and tell her to get in the tub. I am sure I almost died, but I just felt sorry for the girl, that she was sick and didn't feel well, wanting to take away the sickness ( without taking her sickness upon me though, of course) 

I will get the opportunity to help Rileigh get to school and pick her up from the bus stop, help the younger too get food in their bellies and changed for the day. Help them bath if they need it. I  believe that the lord is preparing me with kids, in taking care of them and going through hard things, for one day when I will have my own children.

We are told that being a mother is the best job out there, that it will be the greatest joy in our lives to create and bring life into this world, I believe it!

30 lbs Baby!

So just a quick update, I have made my 30 lbs goal. Yep that't right i have lost 30lbs actually I have lost 32lbs. Yeah Me!

I am so proud of myself for pushing on through, even when there were so many temptations to give into.

I could not have done it without friends and family around me to support me. And my heavenly Father. Thank you for all your support. And again sorry for those who read my blog who are tired of reading about my weight lost. I hope that it isn't annoying and more a motivation for you to go for what you think isn't possible, because it is possible, with friends and family there to help you, and a loving heavenly father that wants so much for you! Have some Faith and shoot for that dream, what ever it may be.

20 lbs Goal!

I DID IT! I DID IT!
I finally made my twenty pound lost goal! I want to keep going but I had to post really quick that I succeeded. I am so happy, I could not have done it with out the Lords help!

Anyways this is short and sweet, but i felt that this victory was needed to be posted I will keep you posted on my next goal when I hit thirty total!