Just living it up In Rexburg

After much looking, applying to jobs, rewriting my resume, I finally landed a job. I am working as a Bus Aide for Rexburg Idaho Madison Public School. I aide for a special needs bus. I get to work several hours a day with lots of different kids. I love kids, so this job is perfect for me. There is this really cute kid that rides in the morning. His name is flash. I think he was kind of nervous of me helping him, but of late we have become buddies. He loves my black leather gloves and wants to hold my hand until we drop him off for school. Today was so good, you can never have a bad day with these kids, even if they aren't always happy. they seem to put a smile on my face one way or another. Flash was in a super good mood today, as I helped him get buckled in his seat, he held my hand, but that isn't all he was all smiles. It just melts my heart. There is this other kid that rides and his name is Joseph. He is a Latino, so his English isn't always good, but it doesn't seem to matter to me. I just listen to him talk and try to answer him the best I can. On Monday I wore my salmon colored shirt and it has a big bow on the front of it. He told me he liked my shirt and it was pretty. He was all smiles too:) I have to share about this one kid that rides the bus, and than we can move on. His name is Timothy, he has four brothers and one sister. out of all the kids, Timothy and his brother Matthew have autism, and they think his younger brother Dwight has autism too, but it is still too early to tell for sure. Anyways Timothy is a handful and sometimes not a very nice, happy camper, but I still talk to him every morning and every afternoon. The other day I asked him how he was his response was " Fine, hey it's you again" ( it was said in a none appraising way) I said yep Get use to it, ill be around for awhile. I asked him if he was excited for school. He said "uh no, now go away." Today as we went home, it was snowing and he was singing jingle bells over and over and over until we dropped him off. I don't know if we are friends yet, but I am determined to make friends with him, especially because he makes me laugh.

Okay enough about my Job. I am no longer dating Mikael. To be honest it was really hard at first. I think I tried to hide it. In the process of that I allowed myself to not feel anything for a week. When I finally opened my heart it hit, and not gradually or soft, but hard and all at once. After a few days of being sad about it, I felt that i still needed to be patient with him, but that I do not need to wait around for him to figure out what he wants. And who knows, he may never want me again. So I was able to grieve, get pass that even if he doesn't want me, I still have worth and I will find someone that does want me.

That brings me to the next line of business! I probably shouldn't put this on here, especially because everytime that I put something on here about my crush, it ends up not working out. I guess that is silly because I don't believe in vudoo and I believe that the Lord has a plan so if it doesn't work out it's because it isn't suppose to work out. I met this guy in my ward. He is super nice, super cute. super amazing:) ha ha I had him over for Sunday dinner and we watched the Newer Winnie the Pooh movie. We talked and laughed and just had a good time. I would really love to get to know him more, and potentially see if anything could go anywhere. I loved how he talked about his mission. I loved how he talked about his family and his nephews. It is hard for me to get out of my shell sometimes, but I felt it went well. I saw him at FHE and we talked and he smiled at me. It was kind of funny as I talked to one of the other aides for the buses, she said it is funny how LDS girls who get hugged or nudge elbows with a guy get weak at the ankles and have tickles running up and down their body. I had to agree that it was funny but true, and oh man I am proud to say I am a LDS girl who gets weak at the ankles when a guy hugs me or nudges me ( mostly in a guy I am interested in) 

Well that is all for now. I will stop blubbering. Hope you all have a great rest of your week.

Gratitude

It's turkey month. I thought this post was perfect. I just want to name a few things I'm thankful for.

 I am thankful for my family. I love them all so much and am so thankful to have such wonderful people in my life that love me and support me.

I am thankful for my father in heaven and for his son Jesus Christ who loves me and took upon my sins so that I might find happiness and be able to one day return to my father in heaven

I am thankful for Joseph smith and his faith and persistence  at restoring the gospel to the earth. I am glad I can be apart of the Latter Day Saints church. 

I am thankful for my wonderful boyfriend Mikael Edelmayer, who has made me so happy. I am thankful for his love and for  the  things he puts up with. I am glad for the chance to know him, even through some of the difficulties we have had were hard, I'm thankful for those too.

I am thankful for his wonderful family who've taken me in and loved me. For their kindness and friendship. i am thankful for their welcoming smiles and words. I am thankful for his mom watching out for me and trying to help me find a job.I love you guys.

I am thankful for my friends and for the support and love I have been getting. I can't believe I'm saying this but I am glad that even through the embarrassing crazy times you love me and can laugh at me and with me. I'm glad you love me and feel close enough to laugh at me and with me, and tease me because if you couldn't then I wouldn't be able to laugh off as much as I have. 

I'm thankful for good fun seasons and holidays. Especially Thanksgiving as we gather the gratitude in our hearts and try to be more Christlike around Christmas and thanksgiving time. I am thankful for the opportunity to see the things in our lives that god has done for us and try to change to follow his sons example.  I hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving and remembers to be grateful for all things.

I think Mr. Sandman put me to sleep.. But I'm back and awake

So much has changed since the last time I blogged. Life just seems to get away from us and keep going, and I forget to keep family, friends and other fellow readers posted. In this post it will to catch you all up with my life.

For the past two months I have lived with my cousin Becca Klingler, in my brothers apartment. My brother is getting married in two weeks from today. They decided that getting an apartment two months before they were to be married would actually save them a lot of money in the long run. My brother Cheston asked if I would live in his apartment until his fiancé Christy could move in. Becca and I had so much fun in those two months. We got so close. Laughed a lot, watched movies together, made meals together, and started dating boys together, which brings me to my next thought.

I am currently dating a fellow named Mikael Edelmayer. We dated a little before, but nothing really worked out until now. I think before we both had some growing up to do and some changing. We have been dating for a month, and a week and a half. It has been fun because my cousin and friend started dating another fellow. His name is Mykal Forsgren. Both our guys are really good friends and so we get to do a lot if things together, which has been a blast.

I stopped dieting for a while, but I tried to still eat healthy. I think that exercising and eating even better are in order. Today I ensued my self and I was. 168.0 lbs. this is my lowest weight yet and I told myself I will not gain it back during the holidays.

My whole family is going to try to make it to Rexburg ID for Thanksgiving and also for my Brothers wedding! It's been three months since I've seen my parents and siblings in WA., and it's been even longer since I've seen my sisters Gillian and her family and Michelene and her family. I just love the holidays! I love family! 

Last night we got our first November Snow of the year. I am not sure if kn happy or annoyed, or both. Snow has good and bad things about it! I guess right now I choose to be happy about it.

Well I think that's all folks! Happy reading! I tried to not be a boring writer! Have a fantabulous weekend

I'm Alive and Well!

Life seems to move faster and faster the older I get. I get busy with living life, and forget to post. Sorry to my readers, who have wondered where I went off too. Yes I am still alive, and living!

I am still living here in Rexburg Idaho. No I am not going to school this fall semester, in fact I am unsure when I will return. I am figuring out a few things in my life right now. I guess I am a firm believer in trying to not go into debt. I went into debt a little bit from my first two semesters at BYU-I. Okay so maybe I haven't always believed in not going into debt, but I can see why we are asked to try to stay out of debt. It makes life tough, and stressful.

I just emailed a lady who has six children, and she will be going to school and her husband will be working a lot. She needed a babysitter. When I thought all was lost and that I would have to move back home, because I had no job, this ad come up and my prayers where answered. Not that going home is a bad thing. In fact I love my family so much and I miss them so much. It's just that it's even harder to find a job in little ole Colville Washington. There really is nobody my age. So no dating opportunities, And well I want to get married... someday. Rexburg is a place for me to be able to try dating people at least, and now I at least have some work available. Anyways, I will be able to stay longer here in Rexburg.

Well That's Just me! Until next time!!

You all have a good rest of your week now!!

Triple Choc Cho Chocolate or Bouncing Berry Bubblegum?

The real question is- Triple Choc-choc-choc-chocolate chunk or Uncle Bubba's Big Belly Butter Brickle?  The answer was easy Both would do! My Best friend and I use to quote this to each other all the time. Especially when we weren't having the best day. We knew that a little treat and jammy time on the couch was the perfect remedy.

I was thinking about the past, Okay not that far in the past, but no the less in the my past. My best friend Kailey Degraw and I would bring out the ice cream and sit on the couch as we would spoon right out of the tub of ice cream which, later saved us many dishes we didn't have to clean. We would talk for hours about the future, what it would be like, where we would be, who we would marry, and all that jazz. She was planning to go on a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and I was hoping to stay and continue with school, and hopefully meet a wonderful young man, who I could marry in the temple.

Of course she is doing exactly what she wanted to do all along. She is serving a Mission in the Oklahoma, Oklahoma City Mission. She has been out for about four months now. Wow I can hardly believe it! She is truly an example to me. I am not doing what I thought I would be doing. I went to school for half a semester more, and decided to take a break. I have no job, I did date a guy for a while on and off, but decided I deserve better than what he was giving. I am not attending school right now. At first I can say I felt like a failure, and sometimes I allow Satan to get the better of me and I allow myself to think lower of myself. My worth didn't go down, but my self image went down. Which is no good, because I am good at many things and have so much to offer, which should be enough

I called my mother the other day asking why people think that they can use and abuse me. I haven't had a lot of luck in the field of dating or with having good friends. Of course Kailey is my best friend and we get a long superb. I could choose to become angry at god for letting me go through hard things in my life especially allowing people to treat me that way, but I look at it as a growing experience. I am going to be stronger for what I go through. God would not put me through these things if he didn't think I couldn't handle it or know that I can grow from it. I am glad that I have a good family who loves me so very much, who look out for me and want me to be happy, and knows I deserve the best. I am also glad to have had the chance to meet good people that treat me good apposed to the ones that haven't been so great. There is opposition in all things, you cannot have sweet if you don't have bitter and you cannot know good with out knowing evil. You need both! I have seen good, nice people and the opposite of that. I am glad Kailey is my friend and I cannot wait till she is back home but for now GOD SPEED SISTER KAILEY DEGRAW

This Is us in A NUTSHELL:)

All Caught up!

Hello Friends and Family and random other readers. What have I been up to since I last blogged?
Well that is certainly a good question. I am currently taking a break from Brigham Young University of  Idaho. To figure out what I am going to do with my life. I am setting up my own little side business. I have another blog for it. It is http://achsahsdomesticbusiness.blogspot.com so check it out, if you are in need of cleaning babysitting, help with putting Sheetrock up or other things pertaining to building. Or if you have other Jobs that you need done. I am super easy going and can work out other prices if the ones I listed are to much or don't work for you.

Anyways I am once again living with my sister Tressie, which she has been so great to let me come stay with her. I am back in the singles ward that she is in again too. Which is fine, because I really do like the people pretty well.

On Wednesday this week I turned 19 years old. wow I can't believe I am that old. When I was younger I never believed it was possible that I would get this old. Then I got a little older and knew it was possible, but I thought it would take forever, but golly I am 19 living away from home. Experiencing my own experiences. Some that are hard, and some not so much, but all which have taught me something. Last night my Friend Joe instigated a Surprised Birthday for me and invited my friend Ashley to help him plan it! ( but we all know that when most guys ask for help planning a party they mean they want you to plan it) My friend Mikael Edelmayer, his cousin also my friend Jared Edelmayer, and my friend Mykal Forsgren planned this party for me. I thought it was great. I get a little nervous when so much attention was on me, but it was sweet for sure. Oh and my Sister Tressie was also invited and was part of the charade:)

A week and a half ago, my mom's side of the family had a big family reunion in Albion Idaho. It was a great time. Lots of  visiting, playing card games, night games, eating food, swimming, and sleeping. It then would all then start all over the next day. There was a few nights the older kids and adults played volleyball in the sandpit which was a total blast. It was kind of fun, because it was at an old campus retreat in Albion. It happen to be historical for our family as well, because My grandmother met her first husband there, which is my oldest uncle's dad. She also met her second husband there too, which brought on the rest of her posterity.

The fourth of July was a little different this year, but just as good. I started my dad out with the Rexburg Idaho fourth of July Parade. It was a bit longer this year than last year. Then I went to my sister, Deidra's house and had Kabobs, with only meet and onion on it. They were fabulous. We also had potatoes, rolls and salad. To finish off our Fourth of July meal we had ice cream cones. We visited, some people started playing card games. Then later that night I went home, but at 10:00pm the city put on some fireworks at the fairgrounds, and since I live pretty close to the fairgrounds I could See the fireworks from the grass in the back of our complex. It was a great day filled with good food, friends and family.

Well I think I am all caught up on what I have been up to the last few months. 

Back at BYUI

I love, love, love my classes. I am so excited that I can be back at BYUI! All my classes seem like they are going to be a lot of fun! Especially Home and Family Management!

I love my roommates too so far! We had fun bonding last night. First we had a mandatory meeting and then we had to meet with the bishop! Afterwards we sang songs together and watched youtube video's.....

.....And when you think life can't get any better you wake up and your roommate is playing feel good music, the sun is coming out, and then you come to class, and many rooms around you are singing hymns or other churchy feel good songs, praying and being taught! I just love BYUI! I love the atmosphere, it is so inviting... Most of the time!

I am so glad I can be apart of this world, and of these experiences! It is the best!